Hello LJ Zach is currently making fun of my "gay coyboy" Yune icon that I'm gonna use for this post...why becuase he's jealous of his awsomeness xD Currently I feel like drawing and or writing maybe some shit tastic boy porn or something but it's also almost 3am and I should probably go to bed or something smart like that but I'm being amused with Vidoll ^_^ Life is going just a wee bit better, no class on Wenesday so I might go down to Wendy's and see the new Farret that is possably named Taco though tuseday might be hell since I has a stupid meeting with teachers and such cuz I suck and seem to let drama rule my life...but this is why we work on things like that xD Nothing much new in Jrock news...I'm getting a Ruki plushie in his no 666 PV outfit and also getting a 2004 GazettE tour shirt that says Saran's Bitchie$ which is like wildest dreams OMG I'm actaully getting this shirt...should be here on Monday :D Well the g-ma calls and I'm sleepy kai-chan so night all
FASA~
Kai

FML....You know, it's really hard to fucking love someone or even be friends when the other person doesn't seem to want it. Or really maybe I feel taken for granted and I don't even know how to approch it. Yet I seem to be the bad guy..if I'm not fucking good enough then fucking tell me, it's not like everyone else doesn't do it. I just feel hurt, confused and used when all I want to do is be yours -_-  *sigh* I'm about ready to give up

I'm not even sure why I'm posting again, I just kinda feel like shit right now. I'm not even sure why I bothered to come to the last day of school becuase it's been utter shit, but Colton's taking me to Perkins and I might go bowling for free tonight but I had to go to bed early cuz I have tests tomorrow at the mental health place to see if they can figure what else is causing me issues. Ruki's coming up this coming week, I can't fucking wait........She's so fucking amazing, just always listening to me and telling me not to listen to everyone elses shit...even though it's really hard for me not to. idk I just feel sick right now sitting here in class I'm so annoyed. otherwaise things are going okay I guess I bet I'll be in trouble for something when i get home though since grandma was in a bad mood when I left I need to change my sheets before I leave and I have no idea when I'll get the bathroom cleaned since tomorrow is an all day thing from 8:15am-4pm and I needs moneies XD idk what else to say this class is thankfully almost done soon then I'm free....
ja ne
Kai

Hey guys! I don't even know why I have an LJ sometimes since I pretty much never post anything but here I am f-list, actually writing YAY! XD I get the house to myself today which has been rather nice, though it would be nice to go have someone to hang out with at the moment cuz I'm getting rather bored, but I have watermelon candy so I'm set I think. Ruki comes up next week and this coming week is the last day of class not that college went well at all but we won't go into that -_-;; Today is my sister's 16th b-day as well as hide's death day, I find that slightly amusing for some reason...slightly scary she'll be driving XD but I think I will wonder the nifty rollor coaster show is back on :D
ja ne!
~kai

Zero-sama gave this to me

[Hizumi, Maaya and Kyo]

Hmmmm tough other then Maaya

Kill: Maaya....I really dislike him for some reason other then he did really look hot in the Oh my Juliet PV
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Fuck: Kyo  just for bragging right more then anything plus I bet he'd be a wild little thing :D

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and I'd marry Hizumi-kun if only then I could be included on the band nights of fun

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lets see if LJ didn't kill this post

Yes, really I'm dead...I swear I should have known I was getting sick considering I was in like the biggest D'espairsRay mood ever (yes fuck you despa you got me sick LOL not really but you know... ;) )  i'm sitting here at the college right now and some guy keeps hitting on me. tis kinda amusing. he seems nice enough so we'll see...idk right now I'm wanting to go to bed but Rp and driving anxities have kept me from leaving atm so sleep will probably alude me for another half hr or so sadly so we'll breathing as all my cold remidies are at home --emos--
love,
Kai

P.S. You like my new Jui icons...he's amazing sersly why did I not know about the GothicKariod PV sooner??

Sorry Zero, your guitarist has failed you, please see my DA page for promised pic spam from last night, Seeing as how I havn't been to school yet I have no pic spam from there yet btw LJ hates me of this I'm sure of

Hello all...I do exist in this place called LJ...yes I know normaly I just post shit on DA but I felt like wirting something else and I already updated DA so LJ was the next best thing since I am not a cool kid and do not have a japanese blog *cough* TORA *cough* btw we still have to write Zero so I can oogle of Karyu (yes I am that sad) speaking of I'm going to mum's I think just to get my top hat so I can wear it tomorrow and feel pretty DAMN YOU KARYU!!! curse my odd impulsive obesseiveness Oh well, I need to get out of the house and that way I can see Acko too so it works out good so yes I'm going to hit the road so I can at least drive in not so dark =D
FASA
Ka-chan

Should be sleeping right now....as it's 1:30am and I have to be in class in ohhhh 8 hrs...which is USUALY how long I like to sleep otherwaise it makes for a cranky Kai-chan but I supposed that's why someone invented coffee and lots of it....was going to pic spam my 37 cent hat for Zero-chan but seeing as I don't know how to work lj she'll have to settle for my next pic spam on DA...btw I want a mac book they're SOOOOO sexy, Erica your so freakin lucky XD I played around with them at best buy and it was like sex...okay no never mind Kaoru's voice when he's not obnixiously breathing air is sex but mac book laptops are pretty damn close took bad they cost more then the laptop I got now...*sigh* in my dreams I suppose. Class is going okay so far other then the one almost panic attack today...and ruki's being slow as hell at rping tonight but it's still fun...I do love to rp =D I should really write on cube but I swear I'm like perminantly stuck or something....maybe I need to try a one shot to get the creative juices going again =D!!! Oh preordered Despa's new cd that comes out the same day I saw them at Taste Of Chaos which I find ironicly amusing =D Horizion came in the mail too completely with pretty post that I didn't know was even coming with it, now it's got a nice home above my bed where I can stare at Karyu =O********
well off to pop in Girugamesh cd (Satoshi=ear sex ftw!) and head off to jrock dreamland
ja ne!
Kai-chan

Oh and it was Aoi's 30th b-day...and I nearly forgot...*is such a bad fan XD*

HI GUYS!!! So I'm still sick, though not getting the horrable bloody noses I was, which is good =3 My finger is really bothering me though, I think it's out of place again....stupid finger. I start school tomorrow O_o slightly exciting...I'm gonna pull a MUCC and dress like Tatsu and Yukke for the first day...becuase that's what I do to feel alittle more in my elemant since I'm quite sure what this school experance will bring. I decorated my notebooks and such, I never relized how many pics of Karyu I had O_o I'm not obessed I swear it!!! XD I've been in such a D'espairsRay mood something about colds and despa boys not really sure what THAT'S about..got my Horizion CD yesterday and it came with a niffty poster I didn't even know about so it was a nice surpaise. Now I'll have the boys above my bed hanging out with MUCC and the GazettE XD and Ruki says she'll trade me Karyu for my Hizumi postcard YAY :dance:  The cd is great too, I'm really digging their new style! Well that's all I got for now, I'm gonna try and post my pics of despa in tea cups ^_^ maybe after a shower.
ja matta ne!
Fasa~
:heart:
Karyu

		I will marry Kodee.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Finland in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 8 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Silver Limo.
		I will spend my days as a Singer, and live happily ever after.

		I will marry Kurabi.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in in tora\'s closet in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 49 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a green truck.
		I will spend my days as a hooker, and live happily ever after.

		I will marry Kaoru.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in canada in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 39 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a purple sports.
		I will spend my days as a jrocker, and live happily ever after.

So I'm actualy going to try and post here more often(like that'll ever happen) and I decided I would start by showing off my new jrock hair I copied Shou from alice Nine this time =3  http://kaiceliera.deviantart.com/art/New-Hair-cut-95070188 I can't figure out how to put the pic up I hate you LJ

Pretty sure it'd half to be Goodwill Thrift store....sucky hours, and it was a job training thing and it was durning the summer time so no AC in the backroom where we hung and tagged the clothes so everyone wanted to be out stocking. On the up side my boss pretty much would let me get away with murder and there was usual always something odd going on, like creepy old guys asking me if I'd write them porn... O_o  

Hello all----So, I made my kick ass GazettE shirt...it's pretty freaking sweet, I plan on taking some pics of it to show off. It's blue and on the front it says "Gazerock is not Dead" and then on the back it says GazettE in japanese then under that Grand Royal Disorder and then it says Kai Desu in japanese! It's so uber!! So yeah, that was my interesting little bit of info for the day :)

I guess this is just me, preforming a sound check to see that IN FACT my journal is up and running!! YAY ME!! Now let's see how long it can keep my interest for....Nothing much of interest going on in the world of Kai---lots of family drama like usual and my ears feel like they're going to explode!! I'll manage though...I always do...and next post hopfuly I'll do my first ever concert review! Fine Line Music Cafe---Dir en Grey Tour of Inward Screams 07! YAY!!
ja for now
~Kyo-chan
p.s---must work on KR Cube fic!!